I JUST DON'T GET IT.
Seriously, people, what the heck do you have against us? I'm speaking for all the mentioned above out there. It's not like we want or asked to be like that. We were just born this way. So what if i was not born with a naturally skinny butt or tiny waist or slender body or long legs or slim arms? So what if i was not born with a size 0 or size 2 body? So what if i'm all flesh and not bones? I still can eat, i still can talk, i still can communicate, i still can think, and i still can do pretty much what the heck i want to do. I don't even know or talk to any of you and you me but all it takes is just one look at my outer appearance and it gives you right to judge me that i'm not pretty or good in my own way.
Hell no.
You have no right to do that. You have no right to do that because you don't know how we feel in the inside. You don't know how we pull through all these years, putting up with sniggering looks and smarting remarks thrown at us from time to time. You don't know how it feels when we hear people commenting all the time at our bodies and hearing them making fun of us, calling us names all the time and dismissing us without a single thought when it comes to topics about girlfriends or boyfriends. You don't know how awful we feel about ourselves when we see girls or guys who have bodies to kill for walk past us. You don't know how hard it is to deal in the inside when we go shopping and try on clothes who are obviously not fit for sizes like us, to try a dress or singlet one or two sizes too small and had to summon up the courage to ask the assistant for a bigger size, to have the tempting urge to try on M or S just to convince ourselves that maybe, just maybe, we've slimmed down unknowingly, but then to realize that those are just dreams and we had to call out for our friends or the shop assistant to get an L or XL. You don't know how left out we are when we hang out with friends who are slim, fit, and tall. You don't know how outrageously low our self-esteem is when we see the opposite sex casting admiring glances at your friends and throwing you just one look of disgust or 'whatever' look at you then turn away.
You don't know how we feel, because you have no need to experience it.
So all i'm saying is, don't look down on your noses at us. Because if you do, you'll make us feel like misfits. And misfits is exactly what we don't wanna be. All we want is to feel welcome and belonged within the society. All we want is to be think of as attractive and handsome and pretty because of who we are, not be branded as a 'nobody' just because we are, simply in one word, FAT. We're trying to, you know, we're sure the hell trying as hard as we can, as far as our determination and perseverance can take us. But you can't expect us to transform ourselves overnight. It's not our fault that our metabolism rate is low. It's not our fault that we were born with a heavier weight or big thighs and arms or thick neck and a round belly. Blame it on the genes and cells and whatever little chemical what-nots inside our body. But never on us.
I, for one, am a girl on the plump and curvy side. And even though I'll often feel all the mentioned above, i sometimes think that if i keep on torturing myself like that, it wouldn't make my life any easier and then i'll be making myself miserable, wouldn't i? So i am now CURRENTLY in the loving myself mode, and i am not afraid to share this little bit out with you guys.
I now currently weight 55 Kg and am quite please with it. I used to weight 52 during my school days but what the hell it's now Christmas hols and i'll be a total party pooper if i restrict myself to yummy food, lots of them. You'll be CRAZY if you don't eat and put on weight during Christmas hols. By the time Christmas hols are over, you can do whatever you want to lose weight, as long as it doesn't resort to you dieting excessively until you have aneroxia or bulimia or faint due to lack of nutrients. Which is what i'm planning to do. =)
So once again, it is now the Christmas hols. I currently weight 55 Kg, and i'm proud of it. ^^
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